am i on the right track?

well..i shouldn't ask this as m furthering my study in tesl..but, sometimes i wonder if my career is not in the teaching field.. it doesnt mean that teaching is not a good profession, but, it's not easy to teach you know? we're not just teaching them the subject but also need to motivate them, support them, guide them, mold them in certain way so that they will be a human..this is the process of humanizing people so that they will become good individuals, children, friends, coworkers, bosses, parents, neighbors, or citizens... if a teacher fails to do this, they might going out from school or university being an irresponsible person and if 100 people become like that, it will affect a society.. and of course, sooner or later to the country and to the world.. i know, parents play a big role in molding their kids, but the kids spend most of their time at school or university.. thus, teachers play a big role in determining their future.. teachers need to motivate the kids who already have been the bad apples because of the upbringing by their families.. hoho~~~ if m not a teacher, i really hope that i can be an archaeologist or an interpreter.. i want to travel n maybe stay in korea to improve my korean language.. huuuu~~~ anyway, when i look at my students' faces when they manage to understand what m trying to say n also do well in their exam or assignments, it makes me realize why i involve in the teaching profession at the first place.. :)

he's my edward cullen...

when i first watch twilight, i was on the moon.. thinking if i can get the chance to live in a dream world,  i would love to live in kristen's imaginary world where edward cullen is existed n i'll become the love of his life.. haha..very naive rite.. well, basically he's the dream guy that i really wanna b with..n then, i met him.. he is not as perfect as edward with a muscular abdomen, white teeth, sexy hair, and soft voice... he has many flaws but i love all of the flaws in him... he';s a bit chubby..my kind of guy.. cuddleable..:P he's very nice e/though he's not really romantic but he can be romantic s/times w/out he realizing it.. huhu~~ n at that moment, i'll just smile n look at him.. i never met a guy like him that can make me cry n love him at the same time... m a weeper now as he is really pampering me with his gentleness.. his parents went to my house to meet my parents couple weeks ago. it was really scary as i've never experience this thing b4.. but Alhamdulillah as my dad was really ok with it w/out many questions..  hope, we can get engaged as early as i can be a loyal wife for him.. huhu...love u baby... miss u a lot... nite...

it feels sucks...

huhuhu~~~ i really don't know what to do right now.. i've been in a relationship for 1 year n two months already.. my dear's parents want to set up a date for our engagement.. but they met me first and asked me directly.. huhuh..and they expect me to ask my dad bout this..huhu..how shud i start? i'd never talk bout my relationship with him..n now they expect me to tell him that m getting engaged? i was hoping that my mom will help me on this.. but, she just told my dad n my dad kept quite..=( she told me that my dad was sort of agree coz if he disagrees, he will say something..huhuhu...but i really think that i need to tell him directly.. but i can't.. m a gurl..errr...a woman.. but, i feel like m his little girl..i'm stuck hee..i dunno wot to do..huhuhu